Verna’s Journey
Pauline Anne Armitage
With acknowledgement, and thanks to John Norman for the
creation of his world of “Gor”, in which
this story is set.
Chapter Six: The Games.
“Welcome, Verna! Had a good look at my city?”
“Yes, Ubar.”
“And what do you make of
it?”
“It’s big, noisy, bustling and brash. There are so many people! I wonder how one keeps track of them all. Your city is magnificent! But it’s also tawdry. Cheap and tacky behind the main streets.”
Marlenus laughs.
“Yes, it’s all of those things. I think you sum it up perfectly. It’s big and bold, and it can drive one crazy trying to control it. Keeping it supplied with food, water, and a myriad other things takes the resources of a whole empire. Sometimes I think that the ‘sleen is dragging the handler’! Come, take wine with me. You are just in time for the gladiators to enter the arena”
There
is a blaring of horns. Onto the sands of
the Arena, march some forty
men. Most are big and brawny though some
are smaller and more lithe, perhaps faster, since they must have survived
fights in provincial arena’s to be here at the Great Arena of Ar. The fighters line up before the box of the Ubar. The traditional chant is given by them.
“We who fight to the
death, offer salute to you!”
Marlenus turns to me.
“Are you up for a wager, Verna?”
Oh
yes? I think that I want to know more
before committing to such. Just what
does he have in mind?
“Choose a champion, Verna. Choose the best that you can, of these men. Come let us look closer at them.”
Having
heard the Ubar, a retainer
hurriedly leaves. An announcer calls.
“Gladiators! Stand fast.
The Ubar and his guest would
inspect you.”
There
is a cheer from the crowd. For most of
the gladiators, this is an honour.
Whilst some have a measure of fame, he life of a gladiator is often
short and brutish.
“Very well, Ubar. However, I want to hear the terms of the wager before accepting!”
“Of course, Verna.”
Marlenus and I wander up
and down the lines of muscular, yes, pulchritude. Yes, I am a woman. This parade of brawny
masculinity cannot but affect me. I try
to be dispassionate. Among the fighters,
there is one that looks mean. He’s not
the largest by any means, but he’s stocky and I suspect quick. He’s low to the ground and hence is less of a
target. He should be able to get under
the guard of a larger man. I look into
his eyes. He looks straight back. There is no subservience here. This man knows his own worth. Apart from a man’s natural desire for a
woman, I think that I see in his eyes a look of respect for my forthright
appearance.
“The Ubar would wager with me, warrior. I would choose you as champion! Will you fight for me, Gladiator?”
“I will, Lady?”
“Verna. Chieftainess of the Twelve Sisters band of Panther Girls of the Northern forest. And your name, gladiator?”
“In the arena, I am known as
‘The Hith[1]’.”
“Fight well, Hith! I rely on you!”
The
retainer notes my choice. Marlenus chooses a
mountain of a man who is named Pantherius. While he doubtless can pulverise the Hith, he has to find
him. And as the saying goes, ‘The higher
the tower, the weaker its foundations’.
Again the retainer trots off.
“Pantherius will fight
The Hith, in the last bout
of the day. Pantherius will fight
for the Ubar and The Hith, for Verna. Chieftainess of the Twelve Sisters band of Panther Girls of the
Northern forest.”
There
is a scurry as members of the crowd head for the bookmakers to get the
potentially better odds of an early bet.
Marlenus and I chit-chat
throughout the afternoon as we snack on delicacies and wine from a back
table. I watch the parade of battles,
noting the different tactics of the fighters.
Some of the fighters, even I could best, but others, no. I would not survive. I do learn some new techniques for the spear
and dagger. They might be useful for me
when I return to the forest. A little
niggle worms through my mind. I can’t
quite put my disquiet into words. There
are two more fights before the final one of the afternoon. The fight between Pantherius and The Hith.
Marlenus has been tardy
in coming to the terms of his proposed wager and I’ve not wanted to press him.
“Verna, I have been thinking about what you said about Ar’s foray into the forest. You may very well be right about the potential for permanent damage. However the plans are sufficiently advanced, that to stop the process now will cause serious economic hardship in the city of Ar and throughout the Empire. I do not rule as an Autocrat, though I could if I chose. The thing about doing so, is that historically the citizens soon rise up and slay such dictators. I will not rule in this manner. I do have opposition in the city. To recall the project at this stage will be seen by that opposition as weakness. It is unlikely that I can remain as Ubar if I do so. I might even be exiled or slain. Twice before I have wrested back the Ubarship from usurpers. I’m not sure that I can do so a third time. The annexation of the forest is now, for me, an ‘all or nothing’ proposition.”
I’m
rather stunned at this revelation. I
always thought Marlenus absolutely
secure in his position. Such information
should diminish him in my eyes, but strangely it doesn’t. As a man though he’s just as powerful, just
as strong as ever. His presence still
does strange things to my heartbeat. I
digest what he’s saying to me. I realise now that I cannot stop Marlenus from his
projected course of action. Even killing
him now, if I can, without weapons, won’t stop the juggernaut that has been put
in motion.
“You, Verna, I give a
once-only chance to halt the annexation of the forest. I did not become Ubar without being
prepared to gamble. Since for me, this
matter is an ‘all or nothing’ proposition it must be for you too!”
I’ve
no real wish to see Marlenus lose the
Ubarship. He’s a mighty man. Such a Larl among men, needs to
be the Ubar. I cannot see him as less, exiled perhaps
killed. Nor however can I let him ravage
the forests indiscriminately!
“The wager then, is
this. If your champion should defeat
mine, then I will call back my troops unconditionally and accept whatever
happens to me afterwards. Should my
champion defeat yours, then you again fall slave to me. As I told you before. Once enslaved again, you will never again be
free. Though it may take time, I will Master you totally. You will know the joys and the desperation of
a slave who has had the slave-fire in her belly ignited. You will need to and will crawl to my feet
begging my touch, as Tuka did. Do we
have a wager?”
What
a choice! All or nothing, indeed! Such would mean a complete and utter
surrender of myself, my personality, my very sense of who I am, should I lose
the wager. Should I win, then Marlenus will suffer
something just as drastic. I could
decline the wager, but to do so risks destruction and devastation of the
forest, my home. But if I were to lose
the wager, it would not be my home anymore!
What to do for the best!?
“Marlenus, should I win
the wager, will you write into the annals of the Empire of Ar, that the empire
repudiates any claim to the forest, including the river-towns, in
perpetuity. That such will bind any and
all future Ubars, Administrators or
Governments, including yourself, from taking or claiming such forever?”
“I will!”
“Should I lose the wager, then before you collar me again, you will grant me one wish?”
“Name it.”
“The big red female tarn that I arrived on, Sister of the Wind, you will free her to return to the wild? She will not take kindly to a male rider. Such would be slavery for her too.”
“I will free the tarn, I promise.”
Is
it dishonest of me to, in my heart doubt that should I lose, Marlenus will be able to
ignite the slave-fires in me no matter how much of my soul I surrender to
him? I had thought that I could
experience no more pleasure than I did, last time he took me. Yet he had implied that such taking had been
little more than a routine coupling, a warming-up. Am I capable of more?
“Then Ubar, we have a wager!”
Marlenus signals to the
retainer, who hands the Ubar an object. Marlenus places the
object, a slave collar on the table between us.
“By the Priest-Kings, Marlenus, you are the
most arrogant and presumptuous man alive!”
Marlenus grins. Why can’t I really be annoyed with him? Curse his audacity!
Into
the Arena comes Pantherius and The Hith. They both offer a shallow bow to the box of
the Ubar. The fight begins. Both gladiators circle one another, weighing
each other up, trying to see if there is a weak point, an opportunity to
exploit. Both fight with the Gladius, a
short stabbing sword, and buckler, a small round shield that won’t hinder
movement of the backhand. Both of the
fighters are right-handed. Pantherius feints to the
right, appearing to make his centre vulnerable.
The Hith is too old a hand
to fall for such a feint. He slides the
attacking blade away nonchalantly. The Hith sidesteps to Pantherius’ centre,
holding away Pantherius’ blade with
his sword. He uses his own buckler to
fend off a blow from Pantherius’ buckler, but
miscalculates the angles. Pantherius’ buckler
strikes The Hith sharply in his
side. The Hith grunts and steps
back. So much for that attempt to get
inside the guard of Pantherius! Pantherius takes the
opportunity to launch a fierce hail of blows against The Hith, driving him
back. I begin to worry slightly. Pantherius
overconfidently bashes over-arm at The Hith’s buckler, relying
on his greater strength to keep The Hith at arm’s length; Pantherius having longer
arms than The Hith. The Hith strikes with a
rapid twist under the guard of Pantherius, jabbing his
left elbow into the belly of Pantherius while quickly
stabbing over his left shoulder into Pantherius’ left
shoulder. The wound isn’t serious, not a
killing blow. Pantherius cries out and
the two part to again to circle one another.
First blood to The Hith! Pantherius is no longer
overconfident. He uses his greater reach
to drive The Hith back towards the
wall of the Arena, reducing The Hith’s room to
manoeuvre. The Hith appears to be
losing. I go cold with dread. Unless The Hith can somehow get
inside Pantherius’ reach and
stab at short range, he will lose. Pantherius is taking
care in forcing The Hith back, to prevent
another twist inside his guard. The Hith seems unable to
find a way past the swinging blade of Pantherius. The Hith makes a
mistake. He’s overextended as he repels
an attack to his left-hand side. Pantherius risking this
vulnerability being a feint, throws his sword upwards, catching it in his left
hand and swings at The Hith’s right flank. The blade digs in, cutting deep. The Hith screeches. I look on in horror. There’s a roar from the crowd. The Hith cannot stand
straight. He’s favouring his right-hand
side. It’s only a matter of time
now. I know it, The Hith knows it. The crowd knows it. There are moans from those who’ve bet on The Hith. Within five minutes The Hith lays dead upon the
sand.
I feel a great hollow in my stomach. I know what I have to do but can’t make my
muscles do it. After five full ihn [2] my body does
what it needs to as if I’ve not told it to.
I fall to my knees before the Ubar, my head bowed in
defeat. I’ve not fallen into the
kneeling posture of a slave, but that of a free-woman. I offer up my wrists crossed, symbolically
for binding. My words a croak that I’m
barely conscious of making.
“I submit myself to you Master as slave. Do with me as you will.”
A
considerable number of people have been watching the Ubar’s box. A cheer begins. This prompts others to look, the cheer
swells. Marlenus takes the slave
collar and approaches me. He places it
around my throat. I can barely hear the
finality of the click as the collar locks due to the cheering of the crowd. I fall to Marlenus’ feet, tears in
my eyes and kiss his sandals. I kneel
back up, and realising my posture error, widen my knees. There’d been two slave-girls kneeling at the
back of the box throughout the afternoon.
I’d not given them a moments thought.
They are behind me now. I feel
shears cutting away my beloved animal pelt clothing. The other slave drops a camisk of slave-silk
over my head and feeds my arms through the arm holes. I shiver anew, being reminded again of the
sensuality of such cloth against my skin.
It seems to sensitise such, enormously.
Two guards take my arms and lead me unresisting, away. Opposite the stairs down from the Ubar’s box, I see
laughing with glee, Lady Arlinga. I cannot
look into her eyes, and should not; such can be construed as an insult.
“ I just knew you were a
slave inside, pierced-ear girl!”
Why do I burst into tears at her jibe? Why when free, having pierced-ears did not shame me, do they now. A pierced-ear girl is the lowest most debased of slaves!
I
crawl on my belly across the tiles towards my Master’s sandals.
“Master! Please I beg of you! Take pity on poor Verna! Give me your touch Master! I burn with need!”
I
had not thought it possible that Master could awaken in
me such feelings as I cannot describe. I
had not thought that a body, a woman’s body was capable of such feelings. Cruelly having lit in me what he once described
as slave-fires, he spurned me to menial tasks.
I cannot hate him. After all he
has so many female-slaves. How can I see
myself as being more than they? I see
all around me every few days, women biting the bars of their kennels. I hear them moaning in need, as I do. They like me burn with the need of a Master’s touch, for that
matter any man’s touch. However crawling
to another man other than Master, without his permission is punishable. Master likes to keep us
all in an abject burning inferno of need.
“How long is it since
you’ve had the touch of a man, Verna?”
“Fifteen days and ten ahn, Master. My need is desperate, Master.”
“Go to the guards
barracks, find the ugliest man there.
Beg him for ten lashes, and then make sure you serve him well.”
Under normal circumstances the fear of the lash would be enough to deter me from wrongdoing. Now in my need, I’m ecstatic. The agony of the lash is a small price to pay. I shall have the touch of a man. He will cure the burning dampness in my belly, for a few days at least. I understand Tuka perfectly, now! As I search out the ugliest man at the barracks, I think back over everything that’s happened since I started this journey. When I looked in the eyes of The Hith, did I fleetingly see the wisp of tiredness, of the man knowing that he’s fought too many times in the Arena? Did I then court my slavery sensing that such would be my forfeit in the wager, by choosing him? Why did I not go to the Street of Leather-workers to have flying-leathers made? Did I on some level know that I would not be returning to the forest? My journey truly is at an end!
“It’s big, noisy, bustling and brash. There are so many people! I wonder how one keeps track of them all. Your city is magnificent! But it’s also tawdry. Cheap and tacky behind the main streets.”
Marlenus laughs.
“Yes, it’s all of those things. I think you sum it up perfectly. It’s big and bold, and it can drive one crazy trying to control it. Keeping it supplied with food, water, and a myriad other things takes the resources of a whole empire. Sometimes I think that the ‘sleen is dragging the handler’! Come, take wine with me. You are just in time for the gladiators to enter the arena”
Marlenus turns to me.
“Are you up for a wager, Verna?”
“Choose a champion, Verna. Choose the best that you can, of these men. Come let us look closer at them.”
“Very well, Ubar. However, I want to hear the terms of the wager before accepting!”
“The Ubar would wager with me, warrior. I would choose you as champion! Will you fight for me, Gladiator?”
“Verna. Chieftainess of the Twelve Sisters band of Panther Girls of the Northern forest. And your name, gladiator?”
“Verna, I have been thinking about what you said about Ar’s foray into the forest. You may very well be right about the potential for permanent damage. However the plans are sufficiently advanced, that to stop the process now will cause serious economic hardship in the city of Ar and throughout the Empire. I do not rule as an Autocrat, though I could if I chose. The thing about doing so, is that historically the citizens soon rise up and slay such dictators. I will not rule in this manner. I do have opposition in the city. To recall the project at this stage will be seen by that opposition as weakness. It is unlikely that I can remain as Ubar if I do so. I might even be exiled or slain. Twice before I have wrested back the Ubarship from usurpers. I’m not sure that I can do so a third time. The annexation of the forest is now, for me, an ‘all or nothing’ proposition.”
“Should I lose the wager, then before you collar me again, you will grant me one wish?”
“Name it.”
“The big red female tarn that I arrived on, Sister of the Wind, you will free her to return to the wild? She will not take kindly to a male rider. Such would be slavery for her too.”
Why do I burst into tears at her jibe? Why when free, having pierced-ears did not shame me, do they now. A pierced-ear girl is the lowest most debased of slaves!
Under normal circumstances the fear of the lash would be enough to deter me from wrongdoing. Now in my need, I’m ecstatic. The agony of the lash is a small price to pay. I shall have the touch of a man. He will cure the burning dampness in my belly, for a few days at least. I understand Tuka perfectly, now! As I search out the ugliest man at the barracks, I think back over everything that’s happened since I started this journey. When I looked in the eyes of The Hith, did I fleetingly see the wisp of tiredness, of the man knowing that he’s fought too many times in the Arena? Did I then court my slavery sensing that such would be my forfeit in the wager, by choosing him? Why did I not go to the Street of Leather-workers to have flying-leathers made? Did I on some level know that I would not be returning to the forest? My journey truly is at an end!

Pauline Anne Armitage:
ReplyDelete(1) The ‘sleen is dragging the handler’ and the ‘higher the tower, the weaker the foundation’ are cute Gorean adaptations of ‘the tail wagging the dog’ and ‘the bigger they are, the harder they fall.’
(2) The Hith (“quick,” “There is no subservience here. The man knows his own worth.”) and Pantherius (“a mountain of a man”) stand in for Verna and Marlenus.
(3) “Some of the fighters, even I could best, others no. I would not survive.” Verna is formidable indeed if she can beat some of the gladiators. “I do learn some new techniques for the spear and dagger. They might prove useful when I return to the forest. A little niggle worms through my mind. I can’t put my disquiet into words.” We see the struggle between Verna’s mind and body.
(4) Marlenus says, “I do not rule as an Autocrat, although I could if I chose.” This flies against his reputation as “Ubar of Ubars.”
(5) An interesting wager for Verna: permanent slavery and the ravishment of her beloved forest against freedom and the sparing of the forests. For Marlenus: risking his rule for an enslaved Verna. She doubts that “Marlenus will be able to ignite the slave-fires in [her] no matter no matter how much of [her] soul [she] surrender[s] to him.” That’s strange, given his reputation. Does she doubt her own womanhood?
(6) “Marlenus places … a slave collar on the table between” him and Verna. Verna wonders, “Why can’t I really be annoyed with him? Curse his audacity!” Verna loves him even though he is “the most arrogant and presumptuous man alive.”
(7) The blow-by-blow description of the fight between Pantherius and the Hith intertwined with Verna’s worries and hopes is a great piece of writing. I could visualize the action and Verna’s mental state. Pantherius kills the Hith.
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Delete(8) The submission scene is vivid. “After five full ihn my body does what it needs to as I’ve not told it to. I fall to my knees before the Ubar, my head bowed in defeat. … I offer my wrists crossed symbolically for binding. My words a croak that I’m barely conscious of making. ‘I submit myself to you Master as slave. Do with me as you will.’ … A cheer begins. … the cheer swells. Marlenus takes the slave collar and approaches me. He places it around my throat. I can barely hear the finality of the click as the collar locks due to the cheering of the crowd.”
(9) The humiliation by Lady Arlinga is exquisite, “‘I just knew you were a slave inside, pierced-ear girl!’ Why do I burst into tears at her jibe? Why when free, having pierced ears did not shame me, do they now. A pierced-ear girl is the lowest most debased of slaves!”
(10) The next scene is also exquisite, “I crawl on my belly across the tiles towards my Master’s sandals. ‘Master! Please I beg of you! Take pity on poor Verna! Give me your touch Master! I burn with need!’ I had not thought it possible Master could awaken in me such feelings as I cannot describe. … Cruelly having lit in me what he once described as slave-fires, he spurned me to menial tasks. I cannot hate him. After all he has so many female-slaves. … Master likes to keep all of us in an abject burning inferno of need.”
(11) There is a repeat of the scene in the last chapter with Verna in place of Tuka. “[Marlenus said] ‘Go to the guards barrack, find the ugliest man there. Beg him for ten lashes, and then make sure you serve him well.’ Under normal circumstances the fear of the lash would be enough to deter me from wrongdoing. Now in my need I’m ecstatic. The agony of the lash is a small price to pay. I shall have the touch of a man. He will cure the burning dampness in my belly, for a few days at least. I understand Tuka, perfectly now!”
(12) The satisfying conclusion, “Did I then court my slavery …? Did I on some level know I would not be returning to the forest? My journey is truly at the end!”
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Delete(13) Chapter One is an excellent re-introduction to Verna and lays the groundwork of her loneliness and women needing to be taken rather than doing the taking. Chapter Two has a lot of action. Although we learn she doesn’t fear death and does everything men do, there can be some thoughts about her burning need to go to Ar. Chapter Three is exciting and balanced with the defeat and submission of Talendar, news of Ar’s encroachment on Verna’s beloved forest and her introspection about Marlenus.
(14) Chapter Four is a let down and a weak link between three exciting introductory chapters and two erotic concluding chapters. Although it sets up Verna’s humiliation by Lady Arlinga in the final chapter and shows her bypassing the leather shop, one commentator said Lady Arlinga’s groveling is implausible. I think freeing the slaves is implausible. There is no long term consequences to Verna’s encounter with the scribe’s slave. I am the only commentator on the subsequent chapter.
(15) Chapter Four can be fixed by Verna spearing the sleen with a choreographed fight sequence similar to the gladiatorial sequence in the final chapter or folding it into Chapter Five. Chapter Five was excellent with both her (temporary) enslavement by Marlenus, her introspection and the invitation to the gladiatorial games.
(16) Although I savor the excellent concluding Chapter Six, you can increase the humiliation of Verna’s submission by having Marlenus bind her with binding fiber, leash her, and have a slave lead her naked around the Arena with a public announcement of her submission. The camisk can be put on her before she leaves the stadium and encounters Lady Arlinga. The shift from her encounter with Lady Arlinga to Verna begging for a man’s touch is abrupt. You can write a whole chapter about her slave-fires igniting. I want to see dialogue between Marlenus and her with her chained to his couch.
(17) Overall, an excellent story, the highlight of my week that includes Lady Filomena’s enslavement, Scipio’s theft of the twenty maidens from the “impossible tower” and Emma’s return.
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Indeed a satisfactory ending to Verna's Journey. A well written tale indeed. Thank you for writing and sharing it.
ReplyDeleteFrom the beginning of this story I wondered if Verna would wind up in a collar, like most named free women in Gorean stories. With each chapter, we continued to learn of her strong independent personality, and her ability to take care of herself. I started to wonder if maybe she might be the exception to the stories, and escape the collar.
ReplyDeleteI was not disappointed that it took a man like Marlenus, Ubar of Ubars, to get her to submit, and in an honorable way, through a wager.